Rarrghh, my head. (Beware: Lots of ranting.)

* I will warn you now, I need to just write my thoughts down. I feel like ranting so I shall, i've been in a pretty bad mood recently and I need to get some things off my chest.

Hrmm, sorry if I haven't blogged in a while. I've got other things on my mind and doing this daily will actually kill me.
I have nothing to write about, everythings so suckish atm. and it's the holidays...what the hell is up with me?
I haven't slept properly since school started. We're already a term into school and i'm not enjoying it at all, i'm constantly tired with a banging headache. I better get used to it :/.
On the outside, i'm always cheery and happy, people ask whats up when I space-out and begin to think.
Nothing is wrong with me, i'm completely fine. Maddie, you complete and utter liar.

But that doesn't really matter to me, because there are some things you have to deal with yourself.
"Ronso deal with Ronso problems."
Heck, I might not be a Ronso, but it's how i've always dealt with things. People like to get involved in your life, they're nosy and they want to know EVERYTHING.
And then...some people just don't care.
You either get one or the other, never the middle-man.

I'm annoyed with A LOT of people at the minute. What annoys me the most, is that it is mostly people I really care about. He's being really arrogant at the moment, he's so stuck up his arse.

Okay, so maybe I lied to him. But I lied to stop anything happening to him.
To be quite honest, I was just leading him somewhere else.
Somehow I thought it would make him happy.
But I risked it, and it all came crashing back down.
I'm sorry, And i'll admit you did tell me so.
- Plus the fact he's older than me, he now thinks it is fine to boss me about.
Well, I would do anything for him. Anything to keep him happy & see him smile.
But that was too far. Far too far.
I wish I could, I really do.

But, escaping far from that. I need something inspiring.
I can't write, I do about a page and then the flow of thoughts just stop.
My pen will write no further, and it's really beginning to annoy me.
During the holidays, I wanted to at least finish a few draft versions.
Obviously not happening. I need help clearing my mind.
As soon as I sort my life out, i'll come back to it.
But whenever I want to sort it out, I go back to writing.

ALSO. HE #2 BETTER SORT HIS LIFE OUT.
HE IS REALLY ANNOYING ME!
He says the rudest things, and then calls it a joke.
And then he says the flirtiest things, I question him about it.
"Oh, i'm only joking."
He grins, turns around -
And then he walks away.
Rarrghhhhh. For God's sake.
I want to know whether he means it. BUT.
Sometimes I don't want to find out.
Because he knows he's annoying me with it.

AND LOLOLOL. Blondie amuses me. I'm so glad I went out on Monday. "You want cheez sauce wiv dat?"
"..Excuse me?"
"I SAID CHEEZ S-SAU. OH WHAT THE HELL, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, MAAAN."

+ WELCOME BACK TO THE LAND OF SUNSHINE, JJ.
Glad you're back.
Not funny you're tanned and i'm not.
You look out of place in England to be quite frank.
You're orange.
Everyone else is white and pasty.
GTFO. :)

&& I went out on Saturday with Anna + Jade.
It was so much fun. + I got my hair cut on Sunday.
IT'S SO AWESOME. I SWEAR DOWN. It's like. Puffy. :3
You have to love the wonders of hairspray.

Anyway. Must flee.
Just a note to add.
I'M SO FFFFFFFFFFFFING ADDICTED TO MERLIN, I THINK I MIGHT EXPLODE FROM THE SEXINESS AND THE AMOUNT OF SEXY MEN BEING SHOWN TO ME.
Good Lord. That guy who plays Prince Arthur. (Bradley James) IS HOT, DAMN.
And then Merlin's sooo cute.
And then LANCELOT.
FFS. Sort yourself out.

Falco X Fox, anyone? :)

MadzyTao. <3

P.S. ILY PHOENIX, MORE THAN I SHOULD DO, YOU KNOW.

P.S.S. ILY VINCENT, THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING AND ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT. I couldn't of done it without you.

P.S.S.S. ILY JADE + ANNA. For making days anything but boring.

P.S.S.S.S. ILY Anyone mentioned on this blog. Because you annoy me to bits, but you're worth it.

P.S.S.S.S.S. Andd..I love you. I still do, you know.